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Monday, April 11, 2011

Runner. I'm a Runner.

I started running back in college, my sophomore year when I lived in the dorms.  I ran with a friend, and what I remember most is singing while running (either Oasis's Wonderwall or Mariah Carey's Always Be My Baby)

Since then, I've become more disciplined.  I know about pace and footstrikes and what kind of music makes me run faster and how gratifying and addicting it can be to build and track a training plan.

I've run numerous 5Ks and a 10K and three half-marathons.

Yet, when I talk about my runs and my running, I always, always qualify my words: I'm not at all fast, I just do it for fun, I've never done a full marathon.

As I typed out last week's post about my latest half-marathon, I thought about these little asides and wondered why I always feel the need to add them.

Is it because I look more like an uncoordinated labrador puppy than a gazelle when I run?

Is it because I build rounded, sturdy muscles instead of the lean sinews I envy in some of the runners around me?

Is it because my brother is "the athletic one"?

Is it because I have to use all of my innate stubbornness and maximum physical effort to build up to times that "better" runners would consider failed races?

I need to leave these negative thoughts behind if I want to be a role model for Abbey.

What matters is that four or five times a week, I lace up my shoes, turn up my running music, put one foot in front of the other.

Left. Right. Left. Right. Repeat.

Four or five times a week, I run.

I am a runner.
Abbey reading with Aunt Carolyn in Nashville
Aunt Carolyn is my running inspiration
I remember her running back when it was cool to wear matching short shorts and tank tops
she's still running, despite injuries and changes in running fashions!




this is an old post, but I'm linking it in honor of Elaine's big decision to train for her first half!

15 comments:

  1. I love your blog and the fact that when I click on it, I never know what I'm going to be reading about! Please accept the Versatile Blogger Award from my blog to yours! Just visit and grab it and have a great week!

    www.contemplatinghappiness.blogspot.com

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  2. Aw thanks! I will try to pass it along in a timely fashion!

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  3. You ARE a runner! :)

    I'm impressed.

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  4. Thanks Shell! I don't know if it's impressive, but I love it!

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  5. I so relate. But even after doing two full marathons and three (soon to be four) half-marathons and a couple 10ks and who-knows-how-many 5ks, I STILL do not consider myself a runner.

    A runner is someone who, you know, runs fast and doesn't always feel like they're dying.

    Which is not me.

    I run. But I'm not a runner. I so get it.

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  6. I am laughing out loud at the "doesn't always feel like they're dying" part, because that's me all the time.

    But Cheryl, two full marathons? If you're not a runner, I might have to change the title of this post to "Runner. I am a Wannabe Runner."

    And good luck on your upcoming half-marathon!

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  7. I am so jealous of your title..RUNNER. I have never been good at walking, let alone running.
    However, I love the fact that you can IDENTIFY yourself, make it known, that you RUN. What a fantastic realization to have. xo

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  8. Here from In These Small Moments. I can so relate to this post and Cheryl's comment. (I've met Cheryl and there is NO question: she's a runner!)
    I take the opposite approach: I'm constantly telling myself I'm a runner, no asides, in the hope that one day it'll be true. Many 5ks, a few 10ks and one 1/2 under my belt, I hope to get back on the trail/track/road again soon...and on to another 1/2 by fall. And yet, I haven't ran in 5 months. I haven't walked more than 2 miles in the past 5 months, and certainly not without significant effort. 
    But I'm a runner. It is part of my soul, even when it hurts to breath, even when every bone in my body begs me to stay in bed, even when my fat ass cannot fit into my running shorts. I'm a runner, dammit.

    Oh, BTW, Hi, I'm Amy, the Mad Woman behind the Blog....and your latest follower.

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  9. Hi Amy!  Thanks for following :)  Although I ran my first half before kids, the one I ran after having Dylan (baby in January, race in October) was so much more significant for me.  I'm registered for another half in October, so we can train "together"!

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  10. You are indeed a runner, and an inspiring one at that. And I love your decision to repost this for Eaine!!

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  11. Okay, I'm a dummy. I knew you were a runner from that AWESOME running post of yours, DUH!  Anyway, THIS is what I needed to read today.  Well, and pretty much every day I put my feet to treadmill or pavement.  I am NOT someone that running comes easy to, I have to work for every mile.  HARD.  

    So, thank you for this!!!!  

    I'm putting this on FB page, by the way... xo

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  12. This sounds like a wonderful way to clear your head and stay healthy at the same time.

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  13. When I find the time to do it :(  

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  14. I need to read it myself lately.  Things are getting in the way of my training, and I am NOT happy with myself.  Plus, it makes me crabby not to run :(

    You are just lovely Elaine, and you are going to rock.  I know what you mean about the miles being tough :(

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  15. Aw, thanks Galit!  I need some inspiration myself lately!

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